I started this painting about four years ago when I had just moved to California. Homesick for Hawaii, my inspiration was my sister, Cori. I had this initial vision of a fun, '80's style painting. She always reminded me of a Nagel girl, and I had an AC/DC song I once performed to ("You Shook Me All Night Long") to set the mood.
The top image is the first version. It captures the easy grace of my sister at eighteen - tall, stunning, and always confident. It was hard not to feel insignificant around her. It remained in this version until this past spring with yet another move cross country; this time to Connecticut. It felt like once again my heart was broken open. Looking at the work with new perspective, it was too superficial. I was able to look deeper and be more honest about the way I feel about us. How much I care and depend on her opinion. How challenging it sometimes is - being around someone who knows the best and worst of you. How when we were kids, my greatest fear was that something would happen to her. And everything complicated I feel about us getting older. Dramatic life changes have tested us, leaving their scars and marks, but ultimately our relationship is one of my most cherished, and this painting is one of my favorite works.